A moment ago, as I was about to publish my January 25th entry I pushed the wrong button and my musings on the day’s happiness disappeared. Irretrievable, it seems, and now I’m reviewing the M2B:) handbook to see how I get something positive out of this, or at the very least keep myself from throwing this computer through the window and into the snow!
It occurred that maybe, just maybe what I THOUGHT was the happiest moment of the day wasn’t the one I was supposed to write about. Maybe all the joy I found in rehearsing guitar parts for an upcoming concert I’ll be doing next week with my friend John Batdorf on the internet (www.kulakswoodshed.com/webcast-high Saturday Feb 6th at 8pm PST) Maybe it wasn’t really an accident that those words are gone and I need to find new ones to fill this space.
Perhaps the great miracle of today is that I’m not truly freaking out. I’m not. It annoyed me that I spent about a half an hour sharing my thoughts about finding harmony and learning new parts and being able to listen to what’s going on in music AND in life only to have it all slip away. Unrecorded and gone.
But get this. It’s okay. It’s truly okay. THIS MOMENT, RIGHT NOW is where my life is and I’m rather amazed than I’m taking my M2B:) seriously and it’s helping me put that little set back in its proper place.
WOW!!! I just realized that my arms ARE long enough to pat myself on the back!! I know this may not seem like a major victory for some, but for me THIS IS A BIG DEAL!!! It’s too late to start a celebration. Can’t crank up the music and dance. Everyone in the house is asleep, and I should be too for that matter. But I’m going to just sit here for a moment and “feel” this feeling.
Unbelievable! I’m so glad I wrote this down, if for no one else but myself. I think this may be one small step for Michael McLean, but one GIANT LEAP for a M2B:) Missionary!!!!
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I am one of those people that has trouble finding the happiness in “what is”. I often waste time considering “what if”, “what was”, “what could have been”, and “what should have been”. There is not much happiness in dwelling on those things. I’m going to try to be better at finding the happiness in the “what is”. Good for you for doing it.
I hate when I spend a lot of time typing something and accidentally erase it…..I did it a couple years ago. I typed my whole 5 page essay paper and went to hit save and hit the wrong button and lost it all! I learned really quickly to save a little at a time instead of typing the whole paper and then saving it. Amazingly I ended up getting an A on the paper, probably because I had to rewrite the whole thing and could fix any errors I made the first time.
Please allow me to share with you a thought. There’s a scripture that talks about recording things, such as in a journal. Guess what? There is no delete button in Heaven. If you lose something here, chances are it will be there.
Regardless, the thoughts you posted earlier are at the very least written in your heart. No delete button can take that away unless you choose to.
Have a wonderful evening.
Dawn
And the truth shall set you free.
seeing the true past, present and future brings that freedom.
Thanks for living in the moment, and sharing it with us.
Dawn, I LOVE this. Thanks so much for sharing it.
Thanks for feeling my pain. I’m going to be “MR. SAVE BUTTON” from now on.
Thanks Misty. As my new BFF we can encourage each other.