My headache started coming on late morning and by mid-afternoon it was threatening to rob the day of any realistic hope for finding an authentic happiness. Feeling lousy can do that to the most dedicated M2B:) missionary. Hurt bad enough and all you can focus on is escaping the pain until it either stops on its own or some remedy makes it disappear. I am so grateful no one asked me how my M2B:) was going at, say, quarter to three this afternoon. I’m afraid I’d have actually told them and it wouldn’t have been something I’d want repeated….ever. But I avoided any such queries and took a couple of aspirin and laid down and waited for relief.
It didn’t take all that long for me to start feeling better. And just having the suffering over was a happy and grateful moment for me. But while I now acknowledge my happy good fortune, I can’t help but think of those who struggle to manage the pain they suffer every day of their lives, and how difficult their journey is. I wish there was a song I could write to make their pain go away. I know it doesn’t work like that, but since I’m better off now than I was this afternoon, I want to offer one of my older song’s lyrics that I offer from my heart to yours today.
IT WOULD BE CRAZY FOR ME TO EVEN TRY TO PRETEND THAT I KNOW WHAT YOU’RE GOING THROUGH. AND I HAVEN’T FOUND ANSWERS THAT MAKE SENSE TO ME SO I DON’T HAVE AN ANSWER FOR YOU. BUT I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING THAT SHOWS THAT I CARE AND I WISH I COULD DO SOME GOOD. BUT I CAN’T COMPREHEND ALL THAT YOU’RE FEELING NOW BUT I LOVE YOU AND WISH I COULD….
I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY THIS EVER HAD TO HAPPEN TO YOU I DON’T UNDERSTAND, SO I DON’T KNOW HOW TO HELP YOU GET THROUGH ITS SUCH A MYSTERY WHY THIS HAPPENED TO YOU AND NOT TO ME I KNOW THAT THERE IS A PLAN AND THAT WE’RE TESTED BUT THIS DOESN’T SEEM FAIR, I DON’T UNDERSTAND SO I DON’T KNOW HOW TO SAY DON’T DESPAIR. I’M JUST HOPING THAT YOU WILL SEE THAT I’M SAYING THAT I CARE, THAT I WANT TO BE RIGHT THERE, BECAUSE I UNDERSTAND ONE THING ETERNALLY…AND THAT’S HOW MUCH YOU’LL ALWAYS MEAN TO ME.
My happiness moments today were these: Relief that my short lived pain subsided AND knowing that I sincerely want so much to be able to take what ever happiness I’ve been granted, even if it’s brief, and send some of it to your way if you’re hurting. I’m happy that I genuinely am able to feel that way. And though I know I’m not the healer, and my songs can’t remove the pain, I’m happy to say that I truly believe with all my heart that the Great Healer of All Wounds has not forgotten you, and if any of my songs can point to that truth, that’ll be enough for me.
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One of my favorites. The Great Healer of All Wounds, I love that, I’ll have to remember that one. And, your songs do do that for many of us. Thank you!
I dont think you know how much your music helps and heals. We all have gifts from “The Father”. I am so thankful you are using yours to lift us all. I have found my own answer to pain in my life. My wife and I have been married for 36 years and are world class cuddlers if there were an Olimpic compitition in cuddling we would have a wall of gold medals. She is my most prized gift from my loving Heavenly Father
I just love all your songs and have loved them all for years. Thanks for sharing your Gifts with us all. You bring hope to me on days when I feel down. Thanks for being a Light to me and bringing me back to know how much Our Savior Loves each one of us. I have a song I have written It’s called Like The Light House. You make me think of it when you shared your story. It’s never been heard by anyone, but my self. Thank you again for sharing your Spirit with us each day. I can’t live without your posts. I long to read them like my scriptures. Thank You Michael.
Our Crazy Mission and Life is What you make it are the same blog. I changed it. Thanks for putting me on here though! I really appreciate it. It made my day when I saw that Michael McLean put my blog on his!
Thankyou!
Hey Cynthia, I’m thrilled that we’re both on such similar missions. Let me know if we should ever plan a conference together,
This means SOOOO much to me, Shirley. Thanks for the encouragement and support. You’re the best.
Thanks Lynda. I think I first used that phrase in a song called WILL HE EVER COME on the album A NEW KIND OF LOVE SONG.